the ballad of pinkman

why are you smiling
but with your broken eyes?
try to hide your feeling
behind your joy and lies

every night you silently cry
shedding your secret tears
no matter how you try and try
you can't escape your fears

surely you always look nice
nicer if you try to smile
fake it once, twice, or thrice
hang on, it'll be worthwhile

Wasted Words

A predictable ingenue.
Blow more balloons.
Getting sugar-high.
And go up in the sky.

For one time too much,
Do you still gullibly think,
That you'll enjoy the ride?
When deep down, you know,
Your head's tangled
In a fluttering suicide rope.

Tsk. Such a fool.


*Thx, Sind, for the balloon suicide inspiration x)

The Emptiest Of Feelings*

It's okay to rain.
It's okay to fall.
But when you're balloonless,
You're colourless.

And that--
Despite the louder words
--Is the emptiest of feelings.

*Let Down [Radiohead]

Silent Silence*

No words today.
I gulped them down.
Just doodles.
And Thom Yorke's voice,
Singing, over and over,

"No alarms, and no surprises, please."

*No Surprises [Radiohead]

Not Denial

It would be good
And please everyone
Happy like they should
It's not what I want

I want to run
Not to face this
Point the gun
To my head or his

It's weird, too bizarre
I just want you to go
For now just be afar
What's this,
--I don't want to know.