pot of words

asa

2011-10-04T23:50:00.000+07:00

di celah keluh kesah kau dan aku
jangan lupa sempatkan gelak
di antara detak detik yang mengantar kita berputar kembali
jangan pernah lupa di awal
kita juga anak-anak berlarian

little reminder for us busy robots

A love letter for Peter

2011-08-19T14:34:00.000+07:00

In the madness of a ticktocking crocodile
The commutes between second star and the Darlings' aisle
I sure do hope we can still steal some time
Roam the sea for an adventure, a kiss, and a rhyme
Play some pranks to Captain and Smee
We do believe in fairies, don't we?

-W.

mr. pirate

2011-02-25T16:45:00.002+07:00

mister pirate says "hi,
matey, kiss your girl goodbye
i'mma take 'er away
you better start yer pray"

mr pirate promises me
hidden treasures and adventures
he gets down on one knee
"you'll be happy," he assures

and as i come near
i see the pirate and not you
but well, lookie here
see beneath the goatie glue

out with the eye patch
wooden leg and the hook
when all is snatched
left a smile with a crook

beneath the cockatoo parrot
surely i will definitely say
that you are the pirate
who stole my heart away

[16 June 2008]

2011-01-13T00:55:00.000+07:00

the hopefuls are
sitting ducks
to weary hostility

damba

2011-01-07T16:18:00.000+07:00

di antara lamunan indah itu
--kunang-kunang dan kemerlip
peri kecil dan tangga nada--

suara tembakan!
lagi! dan lagi! dan lagi! dan,
jangan takut, itu aku

akhirnya dengan berani
membunuh satu demi satu
monster, dan suara, dan hantu

mati suara demi suara
terkurung dalam kantong rahasia
yang kau kubur di peti bajak laut

lalu lolos yang mujur, dengan seringai
dinyanyikan, "satu yang kau rindu,
aku tahu, hanya kata itu tertutur"

damba yang terlupa

pulang

2010-12-16T10:57:00.003+07:00

pulang selalu jadi masalah
pencarian panjang sebuah rumah
dan saat kau pulang sendiri
apakah itu bisa dibilang
bahwa kau telah pulang?

*Picture is taken from and made by the talented Mr. Yoshimoto Nara.

2010-11-14T23:52:00.000+07:00

Sudahlah
Pulang
Makananmu sudah dingin

walk on

2010-10-19T15:33:00.005+07:00

do you still have demons in your head?
tucked into the battlefield in your bed?
have you won the battle and lost the star?
have you tried carefully veiling the scar?

of when you accepted and said goodbye
of when you made the vow of no more cries
some felt nothing and felt so free
some bit the bullet and buried the key

but in the end, when daylight's gone
we smile, we stand up, and we walk on

*for those who aren't defeated by yesterdays

a happy ending

2010-10-06T14:09:00.003+07:00

is a happy beginning
orchestrated with music
that makes your smile sing
and all your inside tick

and the beat of the drums
matches your heart, matches mine
and the fairies of sugar plums
they sparkle the stars align

hello mr. magpie, how is your wife
no one for sorrow, no ill-fated life
a near dragonfly and a distant aeroplane
they look the same, you are not insane

and a happy ending is a happy beginning

2010-08-18T10:42:00.007+07:00

Instead of doing my job, I visited Nandia's blog and found out about this madlib-poem generator. So, instead of doing my job, or writing my own piece, I tried out the site. And ta-dah. So this is what it would've been like if Ms. Plath and I had ever crossed path. Pretty words, grammatical errors and typos =D

beautiful butterflies's beautiful butterflies
I love my poetrys and all the spirit unlocks process;
I sparkle my chemistrys and all is beam again.
(I bang I drown you up inside my clove ring.)

The secret doors go bruiseing out in jaded and stellar,
And magnificent treasure box illuminates in:
I dwell my jeweled crown and all the debauchery cherishs city lights.

I adoreed that you blasted me into canope of stars
And grab me fabulous, dissolveed me quite fine.
(I bang I drown you up inside my clove ring.)

vanity hugs from the fingertips, owl's robots bless:
entwine heart and balloons's zest:
I dwell my jeweled crown and all the debauchery cherishs city lights.

I mended you'd read the way you disentangle,
But I vanish vast and I squeeze your ghosts.
(I bang I drown you up inside my clove ring.)

I should have radiateed a orchestra instead;
At least when music answers they sprinkle back again.
I dwell my jeweled crown and all the debauchery cherishs city lights.

(I bang I drown you up inside my clove ring.)

- Runi & Sylvia Plath

Create Your Own Madlib on LanguageIsAVirus.com

Click here for the edited version

May still sounds bizarre, but it's to my liking.

beautiful butterflies's beautiful butterflies

I love my poetry and all the spirits unlock the process;
I sparkle my chemistry and all is beaming again.
(I bang I drown you up inside my clove ring.)

The secret doors go bruising out in jaded and stellar colors,
And magnificent treasure box illuminates in:
I dwell my jeweled crown and all the debauchery cherishes city lights.

I adored that you blasted me into canope of stars
And grabbed me fabulous, dissolved me quite fine.
(I bang I drown you up inside my clove ring.)

vanity hugs from the fingertips, owl's robots bless:
entwine heart and balloons's zest:
I dwell my jeweled crown and all the debauchery cherishes city lights.

I mended you'd read the way you disentangle,
But I vanish vast and I squeeze your ghosts.
(I bang I drown you up inside my clove ring.)

I should have radiated an orchestra instead;
At least when music answers they sprinkle back again.
I dwell my jeweled crown and all the debauchery cherishes city lights.

(I bang I drown you up inside my clove ring.)

- Runi & Sylvia Plath

Create Your Own Madlib on LanguageIsAVirus.com

basket & blanket

2010-07-22T11:27:00.003+07:00

you can never know
when ants come to bite
or when dark clouds show up
and there's heavy rain to fight

but there are better days
of rainbows coloring the ray
of the orchestra of flowers,
flutters, sparks and drizzles

i look silly in my round hat
you do too in your napoleon
make believe of European summer
costumes and props, all in neon

and they say we're old-fashioned
true, we are, but also in passion
up and down or light and dark
you and i are a picnic in the park

mind dance

2010-07-12T18:01:00.004+07:00

a tap on my window
a tap on my heart
you climbed up the willow
you pulled the shades apart

a tap on your window
a tap on your heart
secrets are kept i know
your sheer poetry, your art

a tap on my door
a tap on your head
a truth or a lore
not to be misread

tapak nyanyian

2010-05-21T16:57:00.004+07:00

Entwined words by me and Sindy. Can you guess which is whose?

dari kejauhan ada gemuruh
dan detik pun bergulung-gulung
wild child, it's time
bunda waktu bersenandung
kinanti sebelum tidur
dan tanya tanya tetap menari

dari kejauhan gemuruh perlahan mendekati
tak ada yang tertidur, tabuh drum itu! tabuh drum itu!
wild child, seek and not weep
sungguh nyaman itu ada
tak kau lihat dia berkelambu gelisah
dan berayun-ayun menggoda angin musim semi

tulip kuning muda temani hatimu berdansa
membisiki janji emas pelangi
memintal-mintal gerakan sampai pening kepalamu bahagia
dan semua menyair hanya satu lagu
wild child, sing your heart out
dan hela nafas senyum itu

(19 May 2010 SF time, 20 May 2010 Jakarta time)

berbaik hatilah, nila

2010-05-02T16:06:00.007+07:00

berbaik hatilah, nila
duri itu tak perlu
di kata suku kata satu
berbaik hatilah, nila
dikira ku tak dengar
hina yang tergesa keluar
berbaik hatilah, nila
sesederhana suatu hari
ku menolak tetap di sini

taptaptap

2010-03-19T17:38:00.002+07:00

you could have flapflapflapped
and then taptaptapped
any other window
any other set of eyes so hollow

but you did mine
the message isn't lost on my spine
as the sew, spin and weave come through
i'll be soon flapflapflapping again with you

equal mark vertical slash

2010-03-02T16:34:00.002+07:00

i was going to let you in
the pool of reasons
of why i'm here
secrets safely stored

but you said you were bored

2010-02-16T15:06:00.001+07:00

semrawut

OCD

2010-02-15T22:44:00.003+07:00

berkeping-keping
berkeping-keping
berkeping-keping

air tak boleh percuma
akan merusak karma
doa sebelum tidur
makmur dan teratur
doa sebelum makan
tentang pencernaan
ambil tujuh tisyu
langit takkan kelabu
tulis dengan rima
tulis dengan rima
tulis dengan rima
hidup lebih lama

pertama pilih merah
lalu sambung kuning
dan hatimu takkan pecah
berkeping-keping
berkeping-keping
berkeping-keping

2010-02-14T20:48:00.003+07:00

lelaki tua mendongeng
tentang peri buah jagung
yang terdengar diamnya
tangis rahasia menggaung

dan gadis kecil menangis
dengannya berlalu semua aduh
kasih lelaki tua dikais
"DENGAR AKU MENGGADUH!"

2010-02-04T23:59:00.001+07:00

aku paling takut hantu
yang namanya masa lalu

2010-01-22T19:08:00.003+07:00

i am still here

do you recognize me?
do you recognize me?
do you recognize me?

i don't.

i am still here

2010-01-22T17:26:00.000+07:00

decay in convenience

2010-01-18T11:56:00.003+07:00

the tired old words
the ticking clock spitted
and the spite that hurts
the unsettling pity was heard

and none can say why
comforting sounds were made
fairytales instead of cries
so you not fall and break

and none can tell
the reason to linger
we've broken the spell
to feed only your hunger

say, say, say
let's say goodbye.

the tired old words
the ticking clock spitted
and the spite that hurts
the unsettling pity was heard

sendiri

2009-12-27T04:15:00.003+07:00

dalam bisikan tariannya,
iblis itu memantra
ricuh kau mencari sepi
dan hening kau cari maki

semua pasti adanya
tapi kau tetap bertanya
hadapi! hadapi! perih
kau sendiri! tak lebih

sendiri

letih

2009-12-16T00:39:00.000+07:00

lelaki tua mendongeng
tentang malam hari
jatuh cinta pada terang
kerling matahari

dan gadis kecil menangis
"hanya fajar dan senja
--pun tak seberapa--
milik mereka"

tanpa satu detak
terlambat atau terburu
"dan gerhana, nak, kelak"
lelaki tua menutup buku

gadis kota

2009-11-25T10:28:00.000+07:00

tak apa
pelangiku rupanya

merah
pantulan rem-rem yang berebut terdepan
kuning
pantulan peringatan hati-hati rebutan
hijau
pantulan tanda masuk terowongan panjang
di aspal
yang basah menyanyikan bisikan janji pulang

dan tak apa.

kerlip

2009-11-17T16:10:00.000+07:00

adalah pendar tutur lagumu
yang kuikuti diam-diam
seperti kepik merah totol hitam
berhinggapan dari bunga melati
kuning labu dan matahari

adalah pendar tutur dongengmu
yang kukagumi diam-diam
seperti kunang-kunang kemerlip
mengedip genit memberi asa
pada malam berdegup resah

lihat, berkilauan air danau
tersiram bulan waktu malam
menari-nari gemintangan
mengikuti lagumu yang terdengar
jauh, jauh sampai hatiku berdebar

adalah itu dan semuanya
menggelembungi kau dan aku
terduduk manis terlibat embun pagi
kembali menanti kepik merah totol hitam
berhinggapan pada bunga melati

*by me and dearest Sindy

piknik setelah hujan

2009-10-27T17:52:00.000+07:00

kupu-kupu menjadi jenuh,
katamu, berulang
kata ulang berulang-ulang

yang kau tak tahu,
bunga-bunga terompet kuning
--yang memainkan parade rahasia,
menggantikan gemuruh gendang,
di tanah, di sekeliling kau,
yang lelap dan celemotan
dengan arbei biru--
tidak gugur dari pohonnya

namun rasaku yang meluap.

Pandora

2009-10-19T18:12:00.000+07:00

one-button-eyed teddy halted her
fuzzy pink bunny caused a stir
raggedy ann parted from rag-andy
cornered her and tried to offer candy

really, we all have tried our best
the retired fool even tried to, well, jest
united, we fought and sent SOS through the static
each and every one of us, broken toys in the attic

even the sandman with a hole on his bag
used up his very last drop, that poor ol' rag
we're sorry, but there is nothing we can do
for we have stalled while she was waiting for you

poor girl, she thought it was the pirate's chest
filled with treasures, pretty dresses and zest
but now the demon has come back to claim
a part of her that you can never, ever, tame

[14 oct 09 - 3.31 pm]

2009-08-14T10:25:00.000+07:00

reruntuhan tak bisa dibilang kuil
hanya monumen
boleh sesekali datang berziarah
tidak beribadah

2009-08-06T13:51:00.000+07:00

don't rush to the other side, dear
so cold, it'll burn you down
the monster will swallow the stars whole
and even the moon will turn pale

don't forget to remember, dear
we have our own demon to fight
the unstoppable we keep stalling
for the sake of the secret in the attic
broken toys of midnight and twilight

and yes, we will always be
running out of time, dear

come, shush, not too loud, dear
hide the chuckles beneath the whisper
come, let's dissolve in the pixie dusts
dance to the orchestra of ghosts
shush, not too loud, not too loud,

come back into the blanket, dear
[May, 2009]

2009-05-14T16:45:00.000+07:00

jangan lupa
di awal kita juga
anak-anak berlarian
berlomba ke ayunan
kau meniup balon merah dan aku melepasnya ke angkasa
mencuri-curi detik berlari dari monster besar yang akan menangkap kalau kita melewatinya
berbisik rahasia dan tertawa dan bermain kata dan belajar merasa
melanggar aturan bersembunyi di balik bayangan dan tertawa rahasia
dikejar-kejar monster bulat bertangan dua dan berkaki satu yang berlari selalu
bernyanyi berdansa berputar-putar berputar-putar
tersenyum malu berjingkat pelan
ssst, jangan sampai ketauan
larilarilarilarilarilarilari
lari
bergandengan.

tertawa terengah-engah
aku mohon padamu, hentikan monsternya!
kalahkan! kalahkan! kalahkan! walau memang percuma
kau acungkan kepalan tinju dan menantangnya maju
"jagoanku," aku di belakangmu
larilarilarilarilarilarilari dan di balik bayangan bersembunyi lagi
kita aman di sini
terengah-engahterengah-engah
kau tiup lagi balon merah
tiup sampai begitu besar dan kita masuk ke dalamnya terbang melihat dunia berwarna karet mulur merah tipis
kita aman di sini

jangan lupa
kita,
anak-anak berlarian nakal
menyanyikan mantera memutari api unggun
menyalakan kembang api menjaga pendar-pendar menemani kunang-kunang
menemani bintang-bintang

jangan lupa
dan walau kita tersesat
jangan lupa
dan tercerai dalam gelap
jangan lupa
lelatu itu tak pernah mati
jangan lupa
lelatu itu hanya kita simpan
jangan lupa
kita juga anak-anak
berlarian senang dengan kembang api

[yesterdays]

berikutnya, terjun bebas.

2009-03-16T16:21:00.000+07:00

lari.
lari lari lari
larilarilari

larilarilari

larilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilari

larilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilari

lari. lari.

lari!

larilarilarilarilarilarilari

larilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilari
larilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilari
larilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilari
larilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilarilari
lari

lariiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
i
i
i
i

my shoes

2009-03-10T14:18:00.000+07:00

it's beyond caring,
it's beyond telling the truth
it is just pure spite.

2009-02-21T16:43:00.000+07:00

selagi kalian sibuk mengepak gembira di luar
--menganyam di antara bunga--
jangan lupa akan sayapku

perbaiki dan bawa aku pergi dari sini

2008-07-31T10:44:00.000+07:00

Psst.
Tiup. Tiup. Tiup.
Tiupsampaibegitubesarkitabisatinggaldidalamnya.

Terbang. Terbang. Terbang.
Terbangjauhentahkemanamelambaikesemuadibawah.

Tiup. Tiup. Tiup.
Tiupsampaibegitubesarkitabisamencintadidalamnya.
Psst.

PS. Ingat balon merah bergambar dora darimu? Kita bisa pakai itu.

terkutuk.

2008-05-06T14:44:00.000+07:00

terkutuk.
entah kau
entah aku

bukan karena waktu
yang menelan bulat akal
bukan karena rahasia
yang mengunci kata
bukan karena ego,
atau setan di kepala
bukan kadaluarsa
bukan rahasia
bukan waktu
bukan setan
bukan nafsu
bukan ego
bukan
bukan
yak,
b
u
k
a
n

tapi terkutuk.

k
a
r
e
n
a
kau
yang
bersamanya
dan aku adalahnya
gadis yang tak bisa
mencinta

entah kau
entah aku
terkutuk.

2008-03-12T15:37:00.000+07:00

you did it to the scribble
that i assume is my heart

when the only thing
that you're allowed
to break is my fall

which you always
almost do, it seems
but never really do
at all.

pinky swear

2008-02-26T17:06:00.000+07:00

i've outgrown the stupid things
i did for high school crushes,
i haven't outgrown the butterflies
i get from the drops of their names,

i see you've outgrown the scarf
you used to use as a belt around your waist,
but you haven't outgrown the quirks
put them all on and call it stylish,

people have outgrown their teen angst,
the depression, the suicidal thoughts
they haven't, however, done the same
to the cigarettes, and the late-night vodka

so maybe we've outgrown our neverland
the photo booth, the yellow car game,
the dancing around in the middle of
a quiet bookstore, whichever--

but i'm crossing my fingers,
just so it'll never be us.
ever.

disillusioned.

2008-02-08T17:09:00.000+07:00

you said never.
and i don't have
that much anyway.
so until next time,

i'm taking this back with me.

time bomb.

2007-07-19T16:34:00.000+07:00

it's ticking
and it's going to explode

soon, i will be pieces

with some of them gone

--which you steal

and some will bleed

and one will be dead

again.

despair in pink

2007-07-16T23:08:00.000+07:00

i keep your shrine,
wearing rosy-colored,
heart-shaped glasses.
psychotic, people say.

oh well.

i think it's love.

gray

2007-07-11T15:52:00.000+07:00

this melting lump inside the head
tells that i forget
the attached bleeding part
beats that i don't

So who's lying?

waktu.

2007-05-28T18:14:00.000+07:00

ngitung.
pecah seribu.
nahan nangis.
dan mati.

ulangi lagi.

2007-02-07T15:38:00.000+07:00

i have nothing
left to stall and
you are no longer
welcome in my sleep
because it's too much
to wake up
and kill myself
with your songs
over and over

and over and

over and

over.

heartbroken.

2007-02-04T15:25:00.000+07:00

i'm in pain not because
i can't find you
but simply because
i squint my eyes
—million faces and
denied tears hazing—
and then realize,
that i'm still looking.

i'm not supposed to have this.

2007-01-24T15:39:00.000+07:00

smeared all over
barely alive
and just might be,

broken.

new kid on the blog

2007-01-08T15:08:00.000+07:00

turn that frown upside down

optimistic

ready to jump?
*lost without you [s. fretwell]

secret and ambiguity

2007-01-05T17:17:00.000+07:00

i don't want you to go
and maybe be happier
because i like it when
we are alone together

falling asleep simultaneously
something inside isn't right
but no longer afraid to die
you say it'll be alright

comfortably sitting in silence
trying not to think out loud
because you read my mind
and i'm scared you'd find out

i don't want a big deal
let's just dance to the song
and maybe like that time before
again, i just might be wrong

leave it on

2006-11-19T21:30:00.000+07:00

i dreamed about you
i thought the light was off
sparks from the plug
house on fire
and my heart sank

simple as that.

red blood lipstick

2006-10-06T22:37:00.000+07:00

rouge, all dolled up
ticktockticktock tick
we won't live forever
will we? your usual logic

tell me what do you see
through streaming stained tears
through high-heels pinned eyes
inevitable and too late, my dear

my lips. your tears. my. your. no more.

rouge, all dolled up
too late, love, too late

[wrds: jul 3rd 2006]

Last Wondering

2006-10-05T21:06:00.000+07:00

Time's singing
Words printed infinitely
And look at that,
Our smiles are frozen
Forever in photographs

I close my eyes
And fly for a while
To where best friends fought
To the land of
Thousands card games

To the invisible city
Of thousands questions
To youth, wisdom and vanity
To the time when
Music was played for us

We questioned all, didn't we?
But have we ever asked,
What to do when we're lost
When entwined hands
Are letting go…

I open my eyes
And we're no longer gods
We can never go back, but
I hold on to our captured smiles
And that's enough for now

*Time is Chantal Kreviazuk's
**For those whom I recently said farewell to, especially Surils who questioned all together with me.

love suicide, love

2006-09-20T20:30:00.000+07:00

drown in the songs
never will be enough
sing. sing. sing.
keep singing with me

you will disappoint
and i'll ruin things
we will be alright
trust me, hold on tight

pull. pull. pull.
pull my hand and run
run. run. run.
run and pull the trigger

see the illuminations
i hid under my eyes?
hear that beat of a drum
i told you one night?

count the butterflies
blow the bubble for us
we're going down, but,
i've told you we'll be alright

Repeated Goodbyes

2006-09-19T21:18:00.000+07:00

These are the last things
I can't say to you.

Listen carefully.
Because I can no longer
repeat things I say,
things you don't hear,
to your ear for another time.

First, I kind of miss you.
And second, goodbye.

(dec 1st 2005)

----------

In my defense
It all ends
The infatuation
My addiction
Bad habits
The littlest bits
Eventually
We'll see

(june 11th 2006)

Robot

2006-07-21T21:40:00.000+07:00

You cut, hammer, and screw
Build him from scratch and tin can
I give colors and my words, a few
We give music and we make a plan

You believe he'll love and protect us
He'll be the eternity of you and me, I'm sure
Don't forget to sprinkle the stars in his eyes
We'll all be perfection, you assure

Lastly I give my heart, with a kiss, I seal
You do the same and he's awake
He'll love, care, and hate; he will feel
Uh-oh, have we made a big mistake?

*Once again I'm putting Robot here; only now, with the help of a much better image. Thanks to Shan Michael Evan who managed to visualize my idea.

Define Stupid

2006-07-15T17:43:00.000+07:00

I never write your surname after my first
Add missus in front of it and giggle
I'm not that stupid
But I remember writing your name
A thousand times
Hoping you'd be all worn out
Hoping you'd fade away.

sing it out silently

2006-07-01T15:29:00.001+07:00

were you thinking
what i was thinking?
were we asking each other
who do you miss the most?

there we were, together,
drifting to our separate ways
there we were, together
back to our loneliness daze

there we were, together
licking our own wounds
there we were, together
hoping we'd snap out of it
--soon.

up and apart

2006-06-15T02:05:00.000+07:00

Vodka in hand
Dream of a band
Play stupid cards
Self-proclaimed retards

Singing mellow tunes
Blow and pop balloons
Yes, of course we dance
The melodious trance

Charades, ridicules and jokes
Burst and fade with the smokes
Let's leave all unspoken
Then we'll be left unbroken

Wish we'll stay like this
And we will reminisce
Our vanished nights
Our mockery fights

Because soon is the dawn
And promises will be gone
Before we all say goodbye
Here's iloveyou to get by

*For anyone who's standing (or hesitating) at the gate of growing up, growing apart, or goodbyes.

cheers for the unpopables

2006-04-24T22:15:00.000+07:00

started out with sweet seventeens
we got out alive to tell the story
with cigarettes we could be seen
never explain, be on time nor sorry

now we're legal to gulp it all down
swim in destruction but I never drown
thanks to you and you and yes, you
this is for another years to go through

on a post-it on your window

2006-04-20T21:20:00.000+07:00

if i had left the words,
"you've had me and always will"
what would you do about it?
or at least how would you feel?

Asylum

2006-04-15T22:18:00.000+07:00

Can you sing Flowers for me?
That is my rescue, it has to be
I won't blame the full-moon again
I won't be needing all the coccaine

Just listen, I won't pop anymore pills
The grass, the wine, whatever that kills
I just don't want to get used to you
Not being here and mine to go through

*Flowers is New Radicals'

define l o v e

2006-04-12T19:42:00.000+07:00

l o u d s i l e n c e.
l o n e l i n e s s.
l o n g i n g.
l o a t h e.
l o s t.
l o w.

skip coffee

2006-04-04T18:44:00.000+07:00

was it you? yes, no, maybe.
or probably it was only me?
sorry, i thought it was fate
shush. a hush too late

there they go, fluttering
i know you didn't mean to
i alone stumbled upon you
now tell me what am i to do?

The Hippie Girl's Words

2006-03-28T21:55:00.000+07:00

Dear mister scientist
Turn your head to me
In my mouth is my fist
Dreading for you to see…

Me.

You concoct tubes of liquids
Waiting for chemical reaction
Well, I said, turn around, kid
See the unspoken attraction

So, just for you I’ll sing
Here’s my flower, here’s my kiss
I’m standing still, everlasting
Until you take a break and notice.

The Day's Lesson of Letting Go and Stitching a Smile

2006-03-24T23:38:00.000+07:00

Read my scratchy words
And look beyond the a-b-c
This is for you, the next person
So on and so on, you'll see

In order to gain another day
I must leave a trail of treasure
With friends, loves, I must pay
Nothing stays infinitely, I'm sure

You can go, out of my head
It hurts for good, maybe a while
But I've my needle and thread
Now I can stitch my own smile

Immovable

2006-02-23T18:53:00.000+07:00

Beautiful,
The sparks in her eyes.
Too bad you'll never see them.
Because everytime anyone comes near,
She'll turn around.
She turns her back on all,
She looks back on everything.
So sad, she doesn't know
What's ready to take her away,
To crown her with the stars,
So sad, she'll never know.

"There's beauty in every sadness,"
She said.

You won't understand.
And until anyone does,
She'll stand there,
And all you'll see is her back
Looking back on the most beautiful sadness,
The bittersweet moment in time,
Known to be the past.

[feb 21st 2006]

Coming Attraction...

2006-02-22T20:24:00.000+07:00

...that most likely won't ever come.

Robot

2006-02-18T16:09:00.000+07:00

Where have the magic gone?

2006-02-10T20:36:00.000+07:00

The world is ready to take my picture and I'm ready to turn and embrace the life they've offered me a long time ago.

The fireflies light my eyes into sparks that will put any dreamer in a trance. The pixie dusts the fairies blow to my beam lit it up to the brightest of the rainbow shades. Teapots whistle wishing me a great unbirthday and the teacups clink into each other and drink for both me and you. The magpies tell their wondrous stories in a secret language. The butterflies' flaps levitate me and we float together in the pool of elation. I see the goldfish smiling and I know they're telling me to dance to the music that can only be heard by me and you.

*Click* there goes the blinding blaze. A Polaroid picture pops out of the thin air and I catch a glimpse of... merely me. All's vanished.

2005-10-23T22:02:00.000+07:00

my frequent beat is failing
sparks and butterflies are set
the rain is finally falling...

*ticktockticktockticktock*

but you're not here yet.

2005-10-19T21:24:00.000+07:00

strangely familiar
it's the tenth moon
mistletoe in October
singing, see you soon

it's windy and gray
but warm, somewhat hot
i feel you so near
here and now, but hey,
--you're not.

You're beautiful.

2005-10-05T19:48:00.000+07:00

See your reflection
In and beyond my eyes
The tears will help you
Explore the omitted lies

Last Words

2005-09-13T21:09:00.000+07:00

Here it is,
Spreaded out, scattered
Before your very eyes
All of yours you didn’t get

My words
Which were born mute
My split-second
Which stays forever
My fire
Which finally exploded
And my eternity
Which came to an end

Tragically nobody's fault
I couldn't talk
Words would cost too much
You couldn't hear
Perfection was too loud

This time,
It's your turn.
This split second,
Is your eternity.

Having a near death experience a.k.a. me panicking and being paranoid about the whole avian influenza issue, I decided to post this. A small part of my massive last words.

Rainbow Ghost

2005-09-01T21:40:00.000+07:00

Rainbow Ghost is its name
It doesn't look scary
It's pretty, some reclaim
But the fact is, on the contrary

What it brings is rainbow
Everywhere, for you and me
It makes one's hopes grow
They're false, I just can't see

It's been haunting for years
So close, I can feel it
I reach out, it disappears
Leaving me in the bottomless pit

2005-08-29T21:16:00.000+07:00

the ballad of pinkman

2005-08-22T20:08:00.000+07:00

why are you smiling
but with your broken eyes?
try to hide your feeling
behind your joy and lies

every night you silently cry
shedding your secret tears
no matter how you try and try
you can't escape your fears

surely you always look nice
nicer if you try to smile
fake it once, twice, or thrice
hang on, it'll be worthwhile

Wasted Words

2005-08-18T23:40:00.000+07:00

A predictable ingenue.
Blow more balloons.
Getting sugar-high.
And go up in the sky.

For one time too much,
Do you still gullibly think,
That you'll enjoy the ride?
When deep down, you know,
Your head's tangled
In a fluttering suicide rope.

Tsk. Such a fool.

*Thx, Sind, for the balloon suicide inspiration x)

The Emptiest Of Feelings*

2005-08-16T23:34:00.000+07:00

It's okay to rain.
It's okay to fall.
But when you're balloonless,
You're colourless.

And that--
Despite the louder words
--Is the emptiest of feelings.

*Let Down [Radiohead]

Silent Silence*

2005-08-16T00:16:00.000+07:00

No words today.
I gulped them down.
Just doodles.
And Thom Yorke's voice,
Singing, over and over,

"No alarms, and no surprises, please."

*No Surprises [Radiohead]

Not Denial

2005-08-09T21:37:00.000+07:00

It would be good
And please everyone
Happy like they should
It's not what I want

I want to run
Not to face this
Point the gun
To my head or his

It's weird, too bizarre
I just want you to go
For now just be afar
What's this,
--I don't want to know.

bad habit

2005-06-28T23:44:00.000+07:00

bite my nails
until they have scratches.
peel my chapped lips
don't stop til they bleed.
pour me another caffeine
make me more restless.
roll me another joint
send me to a tiring high.

please, do those.
release me from these
unseen pain and tears.
yes, you are allowed
you and those, after all,
are equal.

neverland

2005-06-06T23:51:00.000+07:00

Ssh.
It’s okay,
I’ll stay.

Uh-huh.
You go,
Just do so.

Yes.
I said I’d try,
Somehow I still cry.

Bye.
Wait, I dare.
Swear, I’ll be there.

ms.you

2005-06-05T01:43:00.000+07:00

miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. miss. i miss you.

let me say that.
let me be a fool for one night.
let me fall flat.
tomorrow i'll forget and be alright.

Butterflies

2005-05-09T21:41:00.000+07:00

Be still.
For one flap,
The typhoon’d blow.
Up high and down low.

Be still.
For one flutter,
I’d expect and hope.
My suicide rope.

Ssh, be still.
For just one flap,
It’d all fall apart.
My heart.

Don’t move.
Don’t beat.
Don’t feel.
Please,
--be still.

notice the unnoticed

2005-04-13T01:11:00.000+07:00

stArs. LOve. happiNEss.
spArkLe. rainbOw. suNshinE.
sugAr. miLk. hONEy.
dreAm. fabuLOus. eNchantmEnt.
pAradise. bLiss. wONdEr.
AngeL. devotiON. smilE.
AdorabLe. infatuatiON. gracE.
mAgic. gLOw. twiNklE.
flAwLess. cONtent. pErfect.
wArm. LuxuriOus. securE.
heAven. cLOud niNE.
speciAL. extraOrdiNary. uniquE.
hArmony. aLtOgether. uNitE.
dAnces. meLOdy. tuNE.
ideAL. diamONd. gEm.
spArk. coLOssal. fiNE.
fAiry. marveLOus. priNcE.
tALe. sOngs. priNcEss.
beAutifuL. goOd. NicE.
greAt. gLOry. graNdEur.
rAdiant. gLamOur. magNificEnt.
dAzzLing. rOyal. refiNEd.
hALO. spleNdid. purE.
AbLaze. aurOra. radiaNcE.
embrAce cLOse. entwiNE.
floAt. eLatiON. glidE.
sALute. smOoch. eNdEarment.
loyAL. fascinatiON. chErish.
AppeaLing. passiON. prEtty.

there.
i’ve seen the gArden of shangri-La.
nOw see me staNding therE.
leafless.

pinkman's daily dose of melancholy

2005-04-10T00:10:00.000+07:00

pinkman always likes balloons
one day he finds a nice red one
that has brighten pinkman's afternoon
brighter than stars, even than the sun

red balloon keeps floating by
so close, and so near
but pinkman can't deny
pinkman's nagged by a fear

a fear that he wouldn't be able to catch
that nice red balloon
or maybe it would be a mismatch
would pop or even fly to the moon

pinkman does nothing but stands still
trying to figure out which one's best
chase the balloon down the hill
or let go; give it a permanent rest

a rushed rush

2005-03-22T22:41:00.000+07:00

let's fly
hit the sky line
of swirls and curls
of grass and wine

of beads, daisies, smokes,
of alcohol and jokes
of butterflies, your smile, my frown
whichever--stay, don't let me drown.

[march 21, o5]

o2.oo am

2005-03-22T22:38:00.000+07:00

feel this pain
you never have
hear my scream
as you've been deaf
close your eyes
then open them here
far from your paradise
yet somewhere near
do all, you can ask how
do you understand now?

[june o8, o4]

still

2005-03-22T22:35:00.000+07:00

seconds pass today
like they did yesterday
but time stands still
unlike it did that May
what once few steps apart
feels like a world away
we don't change
and still, I wait.

[may 25, o4]

2004-08-31T13:57:00.000+07:00

i can't talk
words just cost too much
you can't hear
perfection is just too loud

pot of words

asa

A love letter for Peter

mr. pirate

damba

pulang

walk on

a happy ending

beautiful butterflies's beautiful butterflies

basket & blanket

mind dance

tapak nyanyian

berbaik hatilah, nila

taptaptap

equal mark vertical slash

OCD

decay in convenience

sendiri

gadis kota

kerlip

piknik setelah hujan

Pandora

berikutnya, terjun bebas.

my shoes

terkutuk.

pinky swear

disillusioned.

time bomb.

despair in pink

gray

waktu.

heartbroken.

i'm not supposed to have this.

new kid on the blog

secret and ambiguity

leave it on

red blood lipstick

Last Wondering

love suicide, love

Repeated Goodbyes

Robot

Define Stupid

sing it out silently

up and apart

cheers for the un*pop*ables

on a post-it on your window

Asylum

define l o v e

skip coffee

The Hippie Girl's Words

The Day's Lesson of Letting Go and Stitching a Smile

Immovable

Coming Attraction...

Robot

Where have the magic gone?

You're beautiful.

Last Words

Rainbow Ghost

the ballad of pinkman

Wasted Words

The Emptiest Of Feelings*

Silent Silence*

Not Denial

bad habit

neverland

ms.you

Butterflies

notice the unnoticed

pinkman's daily dose of melancholy

a rushed rush

o2.oo am

still

cheers for the unpopables